The "F" Word

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Don't Know What To Say

I really have no idea what to say. Lots of things in my mind but I'm just lost for words.

All Better Now

So guess I'm all better now. I think. Well I hope I am. Anyway, not good for me to think too much. Thinking too far is one thing but thinking too much is just too much. Doesn't make sense in some way but yeah. That's just how I am. So yesterday's game was cancelled due to problems with the rims at the court we were suppose to play at. Was expecting to have an excellent turn out. Guess I didn't have my chance to do what I wanted. My guess is that one of the teams from the previous day that played there did something to the rims. Guess one of them went out of control and slammed too hard. Well looking forward to next week's game. Will be a spectacular one. Finally I'll get my chance against the Philippino team since I was absent in the previous two meetings. Wonder how I'll do against them. Anyway, everything else seems to be fine. Guess I should worry less about my own problems and more about others. I'm glad at least one person is fine and that she understands me. Maybe not fully but enough. She's the reason why I'm still all right :)

Uncertainty

What is this I feel? Some mixed feelings along with all sort of thoughts in my head. Some that are silly, some that are stupid and redundant. However I shall keep my cool and let go of everything. I keep saying this to myself but the same thing keeps happening. But I really do feel shaky at times. I just hope you get to read this soon and know that I really do love you a lot my dear Milly Joo.

BTT Failed...4th Time...

I seriously think that either something is wrong with me or the system is flawed. How is it possible that I failed once again. The fourth freaking time!!! I mean, for the first time ever, I actually tried to double check my test. I even did a freaking triple check. And all the answers was the same as the ones I learned. Something must be wrong here. I really feel like just going on without a license. Ahhhhhh...what shall I do about this. It's a freaking simple little theory test that anyone can pass and yet I can't. I do not believe that I am that stupid. People, believe me I'm not. And I do have a good memory for selective things, so when I choose to memorize it, I successfully do it without fail. So how the heck do I still fail? Guess I'll have to go for test number 5. In the meantime I'll also be competing for the most number of fail attempts which I just found out and it's about 700 plus O.O...hopefully I will never even reach 1/70th of that figure.

Basketball and BTT

So looks like my game is getting better. Playing so much better than before, but it's kind of ironic. My ankle is getting worse since it snapped, yet I'm playing with so much more efficiency. And my elevation is better than ever. After my game on Saturday night, went to pull the rim and managed to grab the rim with a full palm. And that wasn't even my full elevation. Feels nice to be hanging on a regulation height rim again. Now I just need to work on having a ball with me whenever I jump that high. Had a great game on Saturday night. Whole team had a lot of fastbreaks on the other team. At least 50 was scored from it. Never did so many before in a game. Had some pretty decent stats, 1 block, quite a handful of steals, and my fair share of rebounds. Never been much active in the scoring side, which is why my I always have at least double the assists than my points. Think I managed to get at least 9 or 10.
So later on at 10.30am I'll be taking my stupid, bloody BTT again. If I fail this for the four consecutive time, I should really just continue driving without a license. I mean, what's that point if I can't pass the stupid theory test, yet I know how to drive. I am even able to abide by the rules on the road and drive safely. It's just insane. Need to get my license soon. Itching to drive a lot. Then I'll also be able to send Milly to school and fetch her back home more conveniently. Lets hope it goes well.

19th Birthday Celebration

So I celebrated my 19th birthday today although it's two days late. Mainly because my birthday fell on a school night so must people wouldn't be able to make it including Milly. But over all, it wasn't as I had expected it to turn out. Some unfortunate things happened earlier on but that's all settled. Had a few other things planned out a but a certain someone wasn't there, so wasn't able to surprise people with what I was going to do. Anyway, a few others couldn't turn up at the last minute as well, but it was fine.
So basically I celebrated at Kbox. Something that I haven't done before and somewhere that I rarely and barely go. So went over to the one at Cineleisure at level 8. I actually booked the party room, but since not that many turned up, had no choice but to take the normal big room. Was ok though. In the end there were only ten of us all together: Alvin, Darren, Felix, Ken, Sky, Anges, Evelyn, Hui Lin, Weiting, and me of course. Only managed to sing one song but not like I knew how to sing a lot of Chinese songs anyway. The food there was all right. And apparently, there was a miscommunication with the cake ordering. While I had already had a cake ordered, Darren also happened to get one. So ended up having two cakes. I just brought mine home in the end. At the end of the session, I was suppose to pay, but while I wasn't paying attention, Darren took the liberty to pay. Oh well.
Got some nice gifts. Well actually only two gifts. Got a basketball from the guys with their signatures on it and a nice t-shirt from addidas from the girls including Jia Xin although she couldn't make it. Shall try it on in the next few days.
Really miss her and want to see her again. Hopefully I'll get the chance tomorrow.