Getting Better? Maybe...

So I got to meet Milly on Friday and yesterday after she got back from her level camp. It was a bad experience for her. Was also a bad time for me since I didn't get to meet her for two days. Don't know how that's going to play out in the future. But I think it's just affecting me that much because of the situation I'm in now. I feel like I get a little bit better every time I'm with her, but then ironically, I get worse at the same time. Don't know how long this will drag on. I barely sleep, I barely eat. It's really sickening me. Emotions running wild; anger, sadness, hatred...all sorts. Like a friend of mine says that I'm perpetually pissed. I agree with that, but I think it's more of a natural anger since young. Always anger for as long as I remember, although I do remember a time when I was never angry.